Currently listening to: Here Come the Sun by The Beatles
Just finished reading: The League of Beastly Dreadfuls by Holly Grant – this book is chock-full of awesome and so so funny!
Is anybody else shocked that it’s already May?? I am – in my head it’s still March. To be fair, the English weather still thinks it’s March – it’s been pouring it down the last couple of days! I am so excited for this month, mainly because I have finished University forever. Which is a terrifyingly-exciting prospect. It’s exciting because of what I’ve achieved (especially in this last year with my injured knee) and it’s terrifying mainly because of this one question that everybody seems to be asking me:
So what are you going to do with your life?
I can’t count how many times I’ve been asked that in the last few weeks. And it’s a tricky answer, because I know what I want to do with my life, it’s just a tricky actually doing it. It’s a loaded question.
If you don’t know what you want to do with your life, the question answer cocks their head to the side and sighs ever so slightly, just to let you know that at 22 you really should know what you want to do with the rest of your life. If you do know what you want to do then you get a curt nod and a tonne of pressure to get a job and be successful at what you want to do.
And then there’s me. You see, I’ve always known what I really want to do, but up until last year I thought what I wanted to do was a kind of pipe-dream – something that was far off, or never likely to happen. I’d resigned myself to the fact that I’d have to get a job and a career and work on my dreams in my spare time.
But then this year came. It was crunch time. Friends were applying to jobs and post-graduate degrees. Everyone seemed to have a plan – even if they didn’t know what they were going to do, they had a plan. As my time at university ticked away, the anxiety over what I was going to do grew and grew.
And then I made a decision. It was a decision based on me and my feelings and what I wanted and not a decision that was based on what I thought would please other people. Which is odd for me – because up until now I have based a lot of important decisions on trying to make other people proud, and not what I actually wanted.
I’m going to follow my dreams – even if they are pipe-dreams and all but impossible – I know that if I don’t I will always regret it.
All things seem possible in May.
What are your dreams? And how are you lovely people? What have you been up to?